"Yes"

In lieu of the past week, I have decided it is no fun to sit around and think about how sad someone else made you. In fact, that sounds like a key ingredient to a miserable day. Life is too short and has too many other possibilites to focus on one single person on the entire earth that broke your heart and made you hurt. So, here goes my new self discovery :)

For those of you that know me, you know that I am extremely cheesy...especially when it comes to lyrics of songs or movies. One of my favorite set of lyrics is the lyrics from the song "I hope you dance." I was listening to that the other day, and was reminded of two very important things.

1) If you come close to sitting out- reconsider
2) Never settle for the path of least resistance

I put a picture on my mirror up of me and two of my friends jumping on the beach with a quote next to it that says, "If you come close to sittin out...reconsider." Merely to just remind myself that life is full of joy. You take the good with the bad. You recognize that life is 10% what happens to you, and 90% how you respond to it. So, I've been choosing to say "yes" to just about everything. Instead of staying in on my couch and watching TV, I've been choosing to say yes to every opportunity I can. I'm waiting for someone to ask me to go skydiving. Because honestly, I am crazy enough right now to actually say yes to something like that.

And I am finally getting to a healthy place where I can appreciate resistance in my life. I KNOW that hard times build character. So, I think that's what the song was trying to convey. Never settle for things in life. Just because something is hard and challenging doesn't mean you should sit that one out. I think it means quite the contrary.

Another life lesson learned at 22: Embrace as many opportunites while you're young as you can.

Find rest...and be made whole.

As I was driving home from Alma, I was listening to one of Kari Jobe's songs that says, "Come find rest in Me, and be made whole," and I could not control the tears :). Something about that lyric was so refreshing, cleansing, and touching. I got to thinking about how some relationships of mine, a recent one to be more specific, have taken pieces of my heart that God has slowly had to mend back together. As I was looking ahead at how I wanted the new year to begin,I began crying out to God that He would allow this year to grow me and stretch me in so many ways that would grow me closer to Him. And then I heard that lyric. It's almost as if He were saying, "Jessica, Beloved, come FIND REST in ME, and you will be made WHOLE." To me, that said He would completely restore the broken pieces of my heart. If only I would seek out and find rest in Him. Find rest in my loneliness. Find rest in my chaos. Find rest in my fears. And doubts. In everything, really.

This New Years, I spent time with some of my best friends in Dallas. We brought in the new year together,and I have never been more confident that I wouldn't regret the people I brought it in with :). In such a short span of time, I learned so much about my past relationship. I learned that bitterness only burns the beholder. I learned that putting faith in God sometimes is more about obedience than feelings. I learned that love is not something to awaken until is so desires (Song of Solomon 2:7). I cherished time with friends. I rejoiced that a certain someone will not be a part of 2010. I smiled that all things will be made new (Revelation 21:5). I ate way too much. I spent way too much. I captured some fun memories:





Happy New Year!!! :)